it'z my life..

it hurts to talk bout my life.. my parents?? they don even care bout me.. i'm not a very healthy girl.. i'm the only one in the family who will have to face unhealthy stuffs.. for example.. i'm not having a very straight backbone.. it wasn't my fault of havin all this rite?? but my parents.. they don even seem to care bout all this.. my eyes get glassy when i'm typin thiz.. my mom juz brought me to see a doctor(which is my uncle).. and she said"i'm worried bout u.. don say tat i'm not worried bout u.." it'z juz so fake.. i couldn't stand it.. eventhough she goes around tellin everyone bou tme.. i don think it'z a way to show tat u care for someone.. she thinks tat she's doin a right thing.. i really hope tat she feels wat i felt.. i'm really offended by all the stuffs tat she bosses about(especially my back).. she made me feel like i can't live a normal life.. i tend to think about my back all the time.. i am very fed up wit her bossy-ness.. guess wat i did?? i go around bossin bout it too.. when i did tat, she told me to control myself..(as in not to boss around too much) and i told a lot of people bout it.. then she thinks i'm bad!! it juz hurts me a lot..
On the other hand.. my dad.. he's worse!! not in my health issue.. but in the way he handles stuff.. *example* i want to go some gatherin.. i've begged him for a week or so.. and he didn't reply.. i felt so damn friggin dumb.. then i asked for my sis' help.. without hesitation.. he replied.. "ok".. is tat the only way to ask him for permission?? through my sis?? i don get it.. even now!! when i'm using the comp.. he said tat he lost trust in me.. juz bcoz i used extra time for this.. if he didn't get things right, he shouldn't have scolded me.. my brother used this b4 me.. and now.. i'm the one who is bein blamed!! wat's the point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????? i'm sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm very disappointed by the way he treated me.. it hurtz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it anymore.. so, i wrote a song to my life!!

why does this, happen to me??

why do i've gotta go through all this??

why does life gotta be like this??

tell me why?? why?? why??

tat's the chorus of the song.. i noe it'z not good to question god.. but i can't stand it anymore!!! it hurts!! i jus need someone to talk to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it'z juz not rite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!