it'z my life..

it hurts to talk bout my life.. my parents?? they don even care bout me.. i'm not a very healthy girl.. i'm the only one in the family who will have to face unhealthy stuffs.. for example.. i'm not having a very straight backbone.. it wasn't my fault of havin all this rite?? but my parents.. they don even seem to care bout all this.. my eyes get glassy when i'm typin thiz.. my mom juz brought me to see a doctor(which is my uncle).. and she said"i'm worried bout u.. don say tat i'm not worried bout u.." it'z juz so fake.. i couldn't stand it.. eventhough she goes around tellin everyone bou tme.. i don think it'z a way to show tat u care for someone.. she thinks tat she's doin a right thing.. i really hope tat she feels wat i felt.. i'm really offended by all the stuffs tat she bosses about(especially my back).. she made me feel like i can't live a normal life.. i tend to think about my back all the time.. i am very fed up wit her bossy-ness.. guess wat i did?? i go around bossin bout it too.. when i did tat, she told me to control myself..(as in not to boss around too much) and i told a lot of people bout it.. then she thinks i'm bad!! it juz hurts me a lot..
On the other hand.. my dad.. he's worse!! not in my health issue.. but in the way he handles stuff.. *example* i want to go some gatherin.. i've begged him for a week or so.. and he didn't reply.. i felt so damn friggin dumb.. then i asked for my sis' help.. without hesitation.. he replied.. "ok".. is tat the only way to ask him for permission?? through my sis?? i don get it.. even now!! when i'm using the comp.. he said tat he lost trust in me.. juz bcoz i used extra time for this.. if he didn't get things right, he shouldn't have scolded me.. my brother used this b4 me.. and now.. i'm the one who is bein blamed!! wat's the point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????? i'm sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm very disappointed by the way he treated me.. it hurtz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it anymore.. so, i wrote a song to my life!!

why does this, happen to me??

why do i've gotta go through all this??

why does life gotta be like this??

tell me why?? why?? why??

tat's the chorus of the song.. i noe it'z not good to question god.. but i can't stand it anymore!!! it hurts!! i jus need someone to talk to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it'z juz not rite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it'z a sad day

it's a sad day!! my sis said tat i changed a lot.. as in like from the angel kind of girl to the devil type.. is it a good thing?? well.. accordin to her.. there are some benefits bein devil-ish.. first of all.. she said tat it'll be easier to communicate with people.. to me.. i don think so.. ppl will think tat i'm a bad girl etc etc.. it hurts a lot when she said tat i disrespect ppl.. for instance.. when we're in the bus.. the uncle don know how to speak english.. but answered his questions in tat particular language.. but wat do u expect my to do?? i can't speak fluent chinese.. at least i tried.. haha.. but after all.. we're still sisters.. can't fight tat long though..

hey.. this is muh very first post.. muz support k??!! the blogs are not like wat it is wrote in the title.. well maybe some.. haha.. i'll let u guys noe more bout it.. but most of the blogs will be about my life.. let's hope tat i'll not be boring ya!! i'll post a real blog the next time..
but first.. let me tell u more bout myself.. i'm a teenager.. i'm have seen this world for about 14 years now.. i have a family consisting 5 members, including me.. my dad, my mummy, my sista, me and my brother.. my siblings and i grow up together.. thiz makes things worst!! we often quarrel/fight among ourselves for stupid reasons.. these are part of the things which i would probably write about.. juz wait and see ya!! well, not only tat.. my parents often neglate me too.. thus, u will either cry or laugh when read my blogs.. we can't deny tat life is full of ups and downs.. no matter wat happens.. we still have to go on with our life.. and ya!! don juz read my blogs.. drop some comments!!! i'd be glad to read it.. on the other hand, my blogs also talks about my friends.. well, u noe.. teenagers.. conflicts here and there!! haha.. ok.. i think tat's all for now.. if u wanna noe more.. juz drop a comment.. and i'm sure i'll be able to read it!!